Fake it 'till you make it

When I first began this program last October, I was so jazzed and ready to get back in shape. I had my second son in March and was giving myself time to adjust to being a Mom to two young boys who needed alot from me, and I didn't want to focus on my weight just yet. By the end of the summer, I was out of excuses and missing my cute clothes. Time to do something. I lost 8 pounds in 7 weeks and felt really good. I was being more thoughtful about what I was eating and was able to run a little without dying. I was stronger and leaner that I had been in 2 years. Then I made a big mistake. When the session was over, I didn't return. I stopped exersizing and Winter set in. I did nothing for 4 months. I am not really sure why except that I put myself last on my list.
Once January was over, I started the session again. This time I would reach my goal. This time would be better than last time. So I signed up for 2 classes. And then the kids got sick. Then I got sick. Then it was snowing. A million excuses got in the way, and I was so unmotivated. I did not know how to get moving again. I knew I wouldn't quit, but I was not into it like before. But I showed up. I had to just go to class, get it done and then I would feel better. I had to fake it, then maybe I would make it. It took a few weeks, and then Mendy gave us a food challenge. Eat 7-8 small, healthy meals or snacks. At first I was like, no way. I don't eat that way. It is unnatural for me. 4 days into it and I was hooked. This was a major boost for me. I loved being able to eat something, not waiting 4 hours until lunch. I loved not feeling stuffed and bloated after dinner, rolling myself to bed to sleep on hundreds of calories. This new way of eating really worked for me. After the first week of eating this way, I lost 4 1/2 pounds. Wow. I have never lost that much in one week in my life! I have more energy, and I eat healthier this way. I have never been a perfect eater; I love junk food. But I am making much better choices. Now I need to make the same progress with exersize. And if I have to fake it 'till I make it, I will do it.